2018.03 Digging Out

Well hey now, it’s the last day of June and while I am closer to having a groove, it still feels like a lot of tapping and no real dancing.  Some of this is my own doing, too distracted with stuff I want to do and need to do of a domestic nature.

There also the other life interruptions that just show up, like a child struggling to make her wings work and running into figuring out to make a job something she can live with so that she can fly.  Mom got sick again, but not so bad and seems to be in her faculties enough to make some good decisions on her own behalf.  Hopefully a short lived chapter.

Then I filled out the paperwork for the self-employed program through Unemployment Insurance and learned last week that I may have done it incorrectly.  Not sure if that means I will have to go back to square one or if they will just turn my request down. Was really hoping they would say, “sweet, this lady has a great plan, let’s get behind her.”  I expect to know this week.

In the meantime, I have collected a few “new” items from craigslist, stayed in my budget, weeded the entire front yard (nevermind that the weeds are already coming back!…grrrrr), and gotten rid of some of my backlog of things that needed doing.  Of course there is still the giant nightmare that gets bigger everyday of blackberry vines threatening currently to eat my tool shed and devour it whole.  It is just such a big job and I can’t quite wrap my head around starting it just yet.

I also kind of put myself on an eating plan, determined to find “me” underneath the layers of life that have expressed themselves in fluffy, dimply tissue around my body and keeping my favorite jeans from being comfortable.  So far, so good.  Thankfully, aside from the occasional stress wave, I really don’t feel hungry most the time and am able to confine myself to the menu without feeling deprived and wanting to rebel.  I expect to find some of my figure again by the end of the summer.  Phooey on menopause, I intend to win this battle!  And all of the other ones as well.  Really just need a groovy groove.

out of sync and trying  to get my groove on,

Kiki

Reminds me of this song from college.  Love it!